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Kicking Procrastination in the Ass!

Procrastination: The Creative Person’s Antagonist

We are all creative beings, whether or not we consider ourselves to be artistic. Each of us holds within ourselves infinite creative potential to create, shape, and define our lives as well as our environment and the world in which we live.  Yet too often in this day of digital diversion our best creative efforts become thwarted or hindered by the creative person’s antagonist: procrastination.

If we’re all some kind of magical creator who has the potential to create anything we desire, then why do we see so many people proclaim their defeat to procrastination?  Why would we, as conscious creators, create more of what we DON’T want in the world?

There are many reasons.
Actually, wait. I take that back.
Ultimately, there’s only one reason:

You.

And yet, within you, there may seem to exist many reasons.
We are complex beings, after all. Shouldn’t our reasons for not doing something or not having what we want be equally as complex?  Are the workings behind procrastination simple or complex?

You decide. You’re the creator.

Either way you look at it, it’s important to realize that you create your reality. Whether you like it (or even realize it) or not, you are constantly and incessantly creating your reality. You create your environment, surroundings, emotions, dreams, desires, and so forth by your actions as well as your inaction. You are a creative being, and your inherent nature is to create. As beings that exist in time and space, we are constantly shaping and defining our present reality.

Understanding Procrastination

If your reality happens to consist of a polluted environment, a messy house, feelings of depression, and a lack or ambition or desire, then you need to fess up and take responsibility for what you created.

Conversely, if your reality consists of a clean and green planet, an immaculate house, feelings or joy, love, gratitude and abundance, and a heart full of passion, ambition and desire, then congratulations! As long as you’re happy with all of that, give yourself a pat on the back for having created the life you desire.

I feel compelled to point out that I’m writing this blog post for myself just as much as I am for you. I need to know and remind myself of this, too.  I’m a creative being, and as a creative being I realize that sometimes I use my creative power against myself.  Sometimes I end up creating more of what I don’t want instead of what I do want.

Procrastination is actually a form of creation. You decided to procrastinate, and therefore you created it and you brought it into existence.

Why did you do that? That seems silly, doesn’t it?

More importantly, what can you do to stop it?

It’s my desire that this article will help motivate us to Kick Procrastination in the Ass by helping us to change the mindset and attitude that so often gives rise to procrastination.

Procrastination is a Form of Creation

Procrastination is simply defined as putting off tasks or actions to a later time. Therefore, when we procrastinate, we ultimately make (i.e. create) the decision to put something off to be completed or addressed at some point in the future. By default this means that, by procrastinating, we continue to create and maintain some aspect of our present — the status quo — until we create something that is not the status quo.

Procrastination is a form of creation — albeit a typically undesired form of creation — whereby we propagate the status quo (or at least some part of the status quo) in such a way that we end up creating more of what we don’t want.  This is assuming that the status quo represents for you or contains within it some aspect you no longer want to keep around in your present-day reality.

Vroom-Vroom

Think of it like this.  You are in a car, behind the wheel, and everything you can observe outside your window represents the reality you create.  Let’s say you and your car are located on one side of town that is generally considered to be a bad neighborhood, and you no longer wish to be there.  

You have a car at your disposal (i.e. your body and mind) which easily enables you to simply drive out of and away from that undesirable neighborhood.  You look out your window at the neighborhood surrounding you and think, “Ugh.  I hate this neighborhood.  Why would anyone want to live here?  It’s boring, dull, and the houses are falling apart.  Blech.”

After thinking such thoughts, suddenly you find you lack the energy to start the car.  Even turning the key and starting the ignition sounds like a chore, never mind actually expending the energy to put the car from park into drive and then pressing on the accelerator. Your journey has come to a halt before you’ve even had a chance to get started.

To distract yourself from the fact that you live in such a crappy neighborhood, you may decide to procrastinate by doing something you think might lift your mood and attitude so that you’ll actually feel energized to drive away instead of feeling drained and doing nothing.  Say you play lots of Farmville, or spend lots of time connecting with friends on Facebook, or watch funny and mood-lifting videos on YouTube.

And while all that seemed fun, if you look out your car window you’re soon drawn back to the reality of your situation — you’re still in the crappy neighborhood, right where you started.

Instead of simply getting behind the wheel and pushing the pedal to the metal, you look down and realize you’re still in park.  When you were diverting yourself, you thought you must have at least had your foot pressed down on the accelerator, but even if you were, doing that while simultaneously in park-mode or while simultaneously pressing on the brake won’t get you anywhere.  As you look out the window, you see more of the same, and become disheartened. 

You’re creating more of the same, actively perpetuating the status quo.

When you realize you just wasted a bunch of time going nowhere, you aren’t suddenly energized to actually drive away.  More often than not, the opposite happens.  You feel even more drained than before.  So you think, “Maybe I just need to go to Starbucks for a pick-me-up and I’ll be fine.”

Alright.  Let’s see if that works. 

You drive to Starbucks, which is just around the corner, and go through their drive-thru.  You get your pseudo-fuel in a pristine white-and-green Starbucks cup.  Motivation in liquid form.  Ahh.  Tasty.  Alright, now you’re ready to go.  Right?  … Right?   Well…

When you make the decision and take actions to procrastinate in some form or another, it might seem like you’re taking actions that will get you closer to completing your goal because they seem to be taking you away from your present reality.  But alas, that is simply not so.  When you take your focus away from your activity of procrastination and instead return your focus to look through your car window, you will find you are still in the same neighborhood, and still where you don’t want to be.

I’ll acknowledge that there are in fact energizing and uplifting ways to procrastinate that may indeed get you closer to your goal, but more often than not, the methods in which we procrastinate will simply result in the continued creation of the same thing or things we wish to get away from.

So, what is keeping you so stuck?  How can you break that pattern and cycle of procrastination?  How can you shift from park to drive, and just speed on ahead?  What do we do next? When do we get to the ass-kicking part? 😉

Resistance is Futile

If you revisit the above analogy, you’ll noticed that you had very negative thoughts and attitudes in regards to your present-reality.  You only had bad things to say about your ‘crappy’ neighborhood.

But isn’t being dissatisfied with your status quo a great way to motivate you to make changes to your life?  That would seem to make sense…  However, based on my own experience, I’d have to say that being resistant to your present-reality actually works against you, not for you.

If your mind is overflowing with thoughts of resistance to your reality and surroundings, then your mind will go ahead and apply that same resistant thought pattern toward your efforts to change your reality, too.

It’s like pressing down on the brake while trying to accelerate away — Although your intentions might seem to be in the right place, you are encountering resistance, and you are the one applying the resistance.  Your thoughts and intentions are not aligned with each other, and in fact are in opposition to each other.  Your thoughts and intentions and their combined frequencies are canceling each other out. Your amplitude is zero, you are traveling at 0 miles per hour, and you aren’t going anywhere.

What you want instead is an increase in your total amplitude, and in order to get that, the frequency of your thoughts and the frequency of your goals/desires/intentions need to be in tune with each other.

The thoughts and attitude (i.e. mindset) you have in regards to what you see when you look out the car window — your present-reality and surroundings — are essentially going to act as your fuel to move forward.  True, negativity can at times fuel you forward to implement changes to your surroundings.  But in most cases, negativity will simply suck you in and keep you stuck as it saps your will to actively create your surroundings.

Ultimately, what we want to do is fill our head with positive thoughts, attitudes and mindsets in regards to our present-reality, even (and especially) if we want to disconnect from the status quo to create a new and different reality.

An Ass-Kicking Exercise

In order to clarify and exemplify what we need to do, here’s an exercise I made up.  It’ll help us kick procrastination in the ass. 🙂

Instead of putting off doing the exercise, make yourself do it now. It’s a step in the direction of changing your status quo and creating the reality you want. You deserve to have your dreams come true, so do yourself a favor and just do it. 😉

You’ll want to have some paper and a pen handy. Using Notepad or some similar application on your computer may work as well, but I’d personally recommend using physical paper and a pen, because holding the pen in your hand seems more real than simply typing digital letters on a screen.

First, take a moment to look at your life. Look around you and examine your current situation. It’s like you’re in the car, looking out the window, making observations about your surroundings.

Realize that all of this — this is what you created.

Please note, if you are unhappy with your current situation and circumstances, please refrain from being too harsh or judgmental on yourself. So when you take a look at the life you created for yourself, try to do so with loving kindness and a sense of detachment from judgment. Simply observe what is. For now, try to resist the urge to attach emotion to your outer life and situation.

As you tune outward and observe that which surrounds you, you may begin to realize there are two aspects to your life and reality: your outer life and your inner life. When I refer to your outer life, I’m referring to what you can see, taste, touch, smell, hear, or measure in some quantifiable manner. Your outer life is essentially your life as viewed from an objective perspective or your objective reality. When I refer to your inner life, I’m referring to how you interpret your life via your emotions, feelings, memories, desires, and so forth. Your outer life is, in essence, your subjective perspective or your subjective reality.

Next, take your paper and pen (or computer) and write down your list of observations as pertaining to your outer life, i.e. some aspect of your life that is perceivable or measurable by the senses. For example, you might write a list that looks something like this:

My Outer Life Reality

– I live at 535 Home Street
– My home is in good condition, but needs some paint
– I weigh 125 lbs.
– My employer is Starbucks
– I make $10/hr.
– I have $3009.22 in my bank account
– I owe $5651.28 in credit card debt
– I have brown hair
– I am single
– My bedroom is unorganized
– I have dirty laundry on the floor
– The sun is shining outside
(etc, etc.)

Take as much or as little time as you like, but I would imagine that spending more time and being as accurate as possible when listing your current circumstances would likely be in your best interest. If, however, you are pressed for time, then focus on a particular aspect or two of your life that you presently feel “stuck” in or an area of your life where you would like to create change, such as your finances and your job/career, recording your outer-life observations.

After tuning outward, it’s time to tune inward.

Read over each item listed in your outer life and tune in to the corresponding inner life, thoughts and feelings that each item stirs within. Take note of how you feel about each item on the list, or your predominant thoughts in regards to each item, and write these down. Be honest with yourself, and write down whatever comes to mind. Keeping with the above example, your inner life list might look something like this:

My Inner Life Reality

– Although I like where I live, I wish I lived in a different neighborhood.
– My home is decent, but it’s not my dream home. I don’t like the size of my house. I want a bigger house.
– I feel okay about my weight, but I feel flabby. I don’t want to feel flabby. I want a hawt bod!
– Working at Starbucks sucks! At least the free beverages are okay.
– Making $10/ hr sucks! Gah! How am I ever suppose to get ahead?
– At least I have some money in my bank account. I wish it were more though.
– Owing money sucks! 🙁
– I like my brown hair… but I’ve always wondered what it might like to be a blond.
– Being single sucks! All my friends are in relationships. What’s doesn’t anyone want to date me?
– My bedroom and kitchen are a disaster, and I hate living in this mess, but the idea of organizing it makes me anxious and I feel overwhelmed.
– I guess it’s time I did some laundry. Blah. I feel lazy.
– It’s so hot outside, it makes me feel lazy.
(etc, etc.)

As Within, So Without

Does your Outer Life list look something like the example above? I hope not, but I know from time to time thoughts like these inevitably float through our heads.

Then again, is it really inevitable? You create your reality, and your thoughts are part of your reality. You can evade these thoughts, and I’d suggest it’s in your best interest to do so.

This negative way of thinking, mindset, and attitude, will typically serve to create more of what you don’t want. By focusing on the negative, you will more than likely foster a mental environment (i.e. a mindset, or inner life) that yields the continued creation of the status quo; your thoughts will disempower you. Instead of creating the life you want, you’ll end up creating the life don’t want. You’ll procrastinate on taking the actions needed to change and mold your desired future into the reality of the present.

Now, I’m not suggesting you simply deny the reality of your present-day situation and try to convince yourself that you love your job when in fact you don’t, or that you live in a mansion when it’s obvious you don’t. That would be delusional. But there’s definitely a way to evade, or avoid, thoughts and attitudes that bring you down and disempower your creative nature.

Yeah but… How and when do I get to kick procrastination in the ass? Kicking ass sounds like fun! 😀

Okay, okay. Here comes the first step to the ass-picking part. Ready? 😉

The Ass-Kicking Part

The first step in overcoming procrastination and kicking it in the ass is actually really easy.

Take a look at what you wrote down for your list of Inner Life Reality perceptions and feelings. Do any of those feelings sound like the feelings listed above? If the answer is yes, then let’s change that, shall we?

For each item on your Inner Life list that sounds negative and disempowering, cross it out, and replace it with an empowering statement. But again, the Inner Life statement needs to be believable to you and your present reality.

For example, don’t cross out “Working at Starbucks sucks” and replace it with “I work with Donald Trump and it’s Awesome”, because obviously that’s just not true — You don’t work with Donald Trump, and therefore you’re not actually going to believe it. Replacing it without something like, “I love my job” also isn’t going to work. There’s no use trying to convince yourself of something that isn’t true.

If you try to convince yourself that you love your job when in actuality you think it sucks, you’ll instead create a mindset that will be fertile ground for those pesky procrastination plants to take root.  It may even serve to make you more resistant to your current reality, underscoring the fact that your current situation is nowhere near the ideal dream life you wish to create.

What you can do is replace your disempowering perception, feelings, and Inner Life with some positive and empowering feeling that you know and realize to be true. This might be something like, “I enjoy being helpful to others. Working at Starbucks allows me to do that, and this makes me happy and grateful that I am able to do something I enjoy.” Another good example could be, “I am presently taking the steps necessary to quit my job at Starbucks and to instead create my own work as a writer of Science Fiction, and this makes me feel excited and passionate.”

Instead of thinking about how you live in a crappy, ugly neighborhood, you might instead shift your thoughts towards a sense of gratitude for all the positive experiences you’ve had while living there.  Or maybe you might appreciate the buildings in that neighborhood that are falling apart, because they present themselves as exciting opportunities to be renovated, fixed up, and made anew.

This way of thinking isn’t meant to make you complacent and satisfied, happily accepting your plot in life with no chance of moving up in the world. It isn’t meant to drain you from ambition and to create change within your reality. In fact, just the opposite is true.

When you are experiencing thoughts of joy, happiness, excitement, prosperity, passion, gratitude, and so forth, you are fertilizing the soil of the present to plant and sprout the seeds of your creative desires.

If you feel awesome about your present situation and circumstances, you’ll be way less likely to procrastinate, because you’ll be in a fertile creative state of mind.

There is No Spoon Brake

When you have thoughts resistant to your current state of reality, you will tend to procrastinate, which again is trying to push on the brake pedal and gas pedal at the same time.  You’re not going to get anywhere, and you’ll waste tons of fuel and energy going nowhere and maintaining the status quo.

Don’t use your own power against yourself.  Instead, create a positive mindset aligned with your current reality.  It’s like removing the brake from your car altogether — now you can only move forward, actively creating the life you desire.

You create your thoughts, and your thoughts will set you up for failure (i.e. procrastination — propagating more of what you don’t want) or success (i.e. what you want and desire). When it comes to your Inner Life, you always have choice. Choose to create positive, affirming and empowering thoughts, and you will inevitably create success.

The more you focus your Inner Life Reality on positive and empowering thoughts as they pertain to your Outer Life Reality, you will soon begin to realize that procrastination is no longer an issue — You’ll have no reason to continue to procrastinate, as your thoughts and Inner Life will no longer be in resistance and out of alignment with your Outer Life. Both will be aligned and congruent, paving the way for growth and resistless, easy change to create the reality you desire while simultaneously obliterating the stifling status quo to the realm of the past! Cool, huh?

Congratulations. You are now well on your way to Kicking Procrastination in the Ass! Yay! 🙂

This is just the tip of the iceberg, since this approach to overcoming procrastination can be applied in numerous ways.  As such, I may start a “Kicking Procrastination in the Ass” series of posts to further explore the different (yet similar) ways of applying this anti-procrastination approach.  But in the mean time…

…Go out there and Kick Some Ass! 😀

unADULTeRATED me – 2010 Fringe Tour! From Toronto to Edmonton, and Everything in Between.

I’m a little embarrassed to say I’ve neglected my blog while I’ve been on tour with my Fringe show, ‘unADULTeRATED me’.

I’m currently at the Edmonton Fringe, which is drawing to a close at the end of this weekend.  I’ve already performed five of my six slotted performances.  My last performance is Saturday, August 21st at 2PM.

Before I get into how my Edmonton Fringe experience has been, first I’m going to recap my experiences for the rest of the Toronto Fringe, Winnipeg Fringe, and Saskatoon Fringe.


TORONTO FRINGE

Overall, the Toronto Fringe was a pretty good experience.  I mean, I had received an AWESOME 4-star review from Toronto’s EYE WEEKLY Entertainment Magazine!  I also had a pretty great online review at a Toronto Theatre Review website called “Mooney on Theatre”.

I also had a number of standing ovations in Toronto, which is always very encouraging.

My second-last performance in Toronto was especially amazing for me.  The audience was certainly not ‘huge’ (no more than 40 people), but the energy was just amazing.  Not only did I have a standing ovation after that performance, but the audience started CHEERING and CLAPPING IN UNISON!!!

Afterward, when I was on my way out of the theatre, a woman who had been in the audience stopped me to tell me how she thought my show was the most daring thing she’s EVER seen on stage, and how wonderful she thought the show was; and especially how she believed I touched each and every audience member present at that performance — especially all the women present.

WOW.  I felt sooo full of gratitude to hear this feedback.


WINNIPEG FRINGE

So far, Winnipeg Fringe (2010) has been my most successful Fringe not only during this tour, but also during my entire Fringe “career”, despite my predominantly mediocre media reviews.

The Winnipeg Free Press review of ‘unADULTeRATED me’ had been based on my June 11th performance in Montreal. I had been in touch with the reviewer, and he himself informed me of the date. This was the very first performance of the ENTIRE tour; the show that reviewer (Kevin Prokosh) had seen was not the same show I had been performing in London and Toronto.  I was disappointed because I felt we (audiences and myself) deserved an accurate and up-to-date review based on the show in its current form, not one that was based on a performance from OVER a month ago.  But, oh well…  Thankfully, however, many audience members spoke up to express their own opinion of the show by leaving comments on the website.  That was wonderful!  Here are a couple of favorites that were posted on the Winnipeg Free Press review and website:

“In my Fringe experience, I am *always* wary of clown shows.

Some are very good (Izzy, Poofy DuVey), and some are very… Very… Bad. (Not mentioning names.)

However- Rachelle has scored a hit with Fizzy Tiff and can be added to that list of hilarious and touching clown shows. What she does in her show really could teach us all a little something about how we look with far too much criticism at ourselves and others- She performs with reckless abandon and throws caution to the wind in the finale of the show, which, without giving too much away, combines probably three of the activities humans generally fear the most. It takes a strong performer to pull off such a gutsy finish, and Fizzy does it humbly and with a touch of class despite her awkwardness preluding it in the first 45 minutes of the show.

Not only that, but the show is very funny. Very very funny. Don’t be afraid to get into it- Believe me, the more you give, the more you’ll get back from her, and she will give you a lot..!

Great show, and in my eyes deserves at least a solid four and a half stars, if not the perfect five.

As stated, the WFP review by Prokosh is a vast disservice to a talented Winnipeg artist who should be recognized by our community. Well done Rachelle! Fizzy Tiff: Part II next year?”


“UnADULTeRATED me is exactly what the Fringe is all about. I loved this play because from the moment it started it kept on enfolding in ambition, realizing its potential at each turn and coming to the perfect ending with props strewn throughout the show covering the stage as if they were left there for us to savour the taste of each delectable scene. At first you think, she is going to pull off the coquette buffoon really well and it is going to be a fun but simple play. Next, you realize that the audience participation and some early risks are going to lead to a little more edge than expected. With success at each level, “Fizzy” shifts it into overdrive with a stunning social commentary that is stinging but offered, if you can imagine, with love, tenderness, vulnerability and hope. My review is “over the top” because this play deserves it!”

As for the CBC review… it was an alright review, but unfortunately for me, the CBC Winnipeg reviewer had come to review my weekday NOON show in Toronto.  There were approximately five people in attendance at that show, and the audience was extremely closed with their energy.  Interacting with the audience felt like pulling teeth, and I had to wonder why they had even bothered to come to a show that had “audience participation” in the warning if they were going to be so closed-off and unwilling to interact.  I  guess that’s the luck of the draw, though.

Despite the mediocre reviews, word-of-mouth (and my flyering!) spread, and I had some wonderful attendance and wonderful shows in Winnipeg.  Again, there were a number of standing ovations, and many people would stop to tell me how much they loved the show.

I also received my first 5-star (equivalent) review in Winnipeg in the UPTOWN Magazine!  Technically, UPTOWN doesn’t rate shows by stars and instead uses a letter-grade system.  But, they gave my show an A+ rating, which is equivalent to 5-stars!

I never sold out a show in Winnipeg, but I came *extremely* close to selling out a show…  I think three of my shows had attendance in the high 90’s!

My show also earned “BEST of FEST” for my venue!

So, overall, Winnipeg Fringe was a wonderful experience!


SASKATOON FRINGE

After the Winnipeg Fringe, it was off to Saskatoon.

I had a number of ups and downs in Saskatoon.

In terms of “ups”,  ‘unADULTeRATED me’ received a wonderful 5-STAR review that was published in the Saskatoon daily paper called The Star Phoenix.  That was certainly pretty awesome!

The fact that Saskatoon Fringe is a pretty small Fringe Festival also proved to be an up/pro (vs. a con) — that way, audience members have the chance to see every show if they so choose.  This certainly would not be possible at a larger Fringe Festival like the Winnipeg Fringe or Edmonton Fringe.

One of the down sides of my experience at the Saskatoon Fringe was pertaining to my venue.  It was in a school gymnasium and the acoustics were pretty lousy.  Additionally, due to the nature of my show, my show works best when performed in a venue or space that contributes in creating intimacy between myself and the audience.  My venue in Winnipeg was perfect for this… However, As for my venue in Saskatoon… let’s just say it’s more difficult to create a feeling of intimacy in a gymnasium.

…Venue-characteristics aside, there were some organizational issues that myself and other Fringe artists encountered, too….  Without going into any specific/boring details, let it suffice to say that it was pretty damn frustrating and annoying.  But oh well…

Anyway.  During the time of the Saskatoon Fringe, I was finding I needed a lot of personal time to myself. By this point I had been touring for a while, and additionally I missed my sweet heart terribly.

Saskatoon Fringe is typically known as the Fringe where all the Fringe Artists get to see each others’ shows, but unfortunately, I only saw two shows there!  I spent most of my off-time at my ‘home’.  Additionally, the place where I was staying in Saskatoon was a 45 minute walk away from the Fringe, so I spent quite a bit of time each day walking to and fro (unless I managed to get a ride part-way there).

Since I had spent a lot of down-time at home, I didn’t flyer nearly as much as I “should” have.  But even so, I did better at the box office in Saskatoon than I had for Toronto, London, or Montreal.

My show received multiple standing ovations in Saskatoon, as well!  I encountered many local audience members who told me how much they loved the show.  Some performers who saw my show there also had great feedback for me.  One performer who saw it in Saskatoon had even told me she felt like it was the best show she had ever seen in her life!  A different performer told me he thought it was strikingly beautiful.  (Aww!)  While yet another performer told me how much she loved the show and my character.

Despite my 5-STAR review in the local daily paper, multiple standing ovations, and much wonderful feedback, I was a little hurt to find out how some people detested my show.  An online blogger for a local entertainment paper/website apparently disliked the show quite adamantly and gave it 1 star.  Unfortunately, I know this hindered a lot of people from seeing the show, which is really unfortunate.

However, I know many MANY people truly enjoyed my show because I received many standing ovations while in Saskatoon!  Additionally, many people would tell me in person that they truly loved and appreciated my show, or they would take the time to find me on Facebook and tell me there… or, some even ventured out to find my blog to leave glowing comments!   Such exchanges were (and are) always welcomed and very encouraging.  🙂

As my show traveled and toured further west, it seems its audience members would become more and more polarized and divided in regards to this show!


EDMONTON FRINGE

I arrived at Edmonton Fringe with hopes of the most successful Fringe I would ever have in my life.  Here I was, my show having garnered a number of 4 and 5 star reviews, in the largest Fringe Festival in all of North America.  Surely I would do really well here, right?

Perhaps I would have had my show not been panned by a number of local reviewers.

I must admit, I was a little bewildered at the harshness of some of the reviews my show was receiving here in Edmonton.  For example, a review in the Edmonton Journal rated my show at 1.5 stars.  This review was based on a performance at the Saskatoon Fringe. …Now, I happen to know which performance this particular reviewer had been at; and at the end of that particular performance, about a dozen or so audience members who had been in attendance at that matinee show rose out of their seats to give me a standing ovation.  Surely that would equate to a fairly decent review?  But, apparently not!

The reviewer did not personally enjoy the show.  According to her review, I don’t think she really understood it, but either way… I would think that a reviewer for a paper would want to point out that her opinion differs from those who were also in attendance who thought the show deserved a standing ovation.  I mean, in my opinion, a reviewer for a city-wide newspaper has an obligation, or duty, to inform the public of facts pertaining to a show, and not just mere and pure subjective opinion.  It was a fact that many people in attendance truly enjoyed the show and gave it a standing ovation.  But to blatantly omit this fact from the review… just seemed so wrong to me!

Let me be clear — I think everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I don’t expect everyone to love my show.  That is totally fine with me.  To expect otherwise would be unreasonable.  I’m not upset that the reviewer did not enjoy my play. But, as a reviewer for a city-wide daily paper such as the Edmonton Journal, I would think the reviewer should have at least acknowledged in her review that many people who attended the performance she witnessed did, in fact, thoroughly enjoy the show — even enough to give it a standing ovation!  In my books, a 1.5 star review + a standing ovation just doesn’t add up!

The audience comments that some people left on the E.J.’s review website were also hugely contrasted. One commenter said they felt the show was an awful train wreck, while yet another thoroughly enjoyed it and said they’d rate it at 4.5 stars.

A different review that was published in the Sun here in Edmonton was an interesting one.  The show was given a rating of 2 suns (i.e. stars), and yet…  at the end of the review (in reference to the end of my play), it was summed up that I had delivered an outstanding heartfelt performance.  Again, this didn’t seem to add up in my books… outstanding heartfelt performance (i.e. a heartfelt socko) equates to two stars?  Well, okay…

I’m honestly not sure what all the controversy is about.  Perhaps Edmonton is more conservative than I had initially thought!?  Clearly, in my opinion at least, some people simply did not ‘get’ the show and failed to see the deeper meaning and metaphor which lay just beneath the outer surface and exterior of the play’s deceivingly simple plot.  But what can one do?  I’d rather have it be somewhat subtle than beat people over the head with any sort of message or theme.

Despite many poor and mediocre media reviews I’ve received here in Edmonton, I’m still encountering many people here at the Edmonton Fringe who have truly loved and appreciated ‘unADULTeRATED me’.  Just this evening, I was recognized while on the Fringe grounds, and a man who had seen the play stopped to tell me he quite enjoyed my show and thought it was awesome!  Another man who had seen my show told me he had worked in the entertainment and theatre industry for years and had seen in the vicinity of 10,000 shows… and, he thought my show was amongst the most enjoyable he’s ever seen!!!  WOW!!!  Considering that man’s background and profession, I was especially thankful to hear such lovely encouraging feedback!  (…There have been many other cases too, such as Fringe Volunteers telling me my show was their favorite so far, etc.)

But, in terms of media reviews, at least I have a 5 STAR review published online in Edmonton’s SEE Magazine.  It is a wonderful review, too.  And for that, I am very appreciative and thankful!


ALL GOOD THINGS…

I’ll be done performing the last show of ‘unADULTeRATED me’  here in Edmonton in just under 12 hours from now.  After that, I’ll be traveling to Calgary with a good friend of mine that I’ve known since high school.  I’ll be spending the night there, and we have a plan in the day on Sunday (I think we’re going for a hike), and then Sunday evening I’ll be flying out to Vegas to visit with my U.S. Sweetheart.  <3  I miss him so much!!!

I have plans to perform the show at least a couple more times coming up in October.  Plans are in the works to perform ‘unADULTeRATED me’ at the Soulocentric Festival in Calgary, and I’ll also be performing the show once more in Winnipeg at Aqua Books as part of their ‘Best Of The Fest’ Series on October 16th!

All in all, this tour and show have given way to some extremely wonderful experiences.  True, it’s had its ups and downs, but when I look back at the overall experience, I wouldn’t want it any other way.

Each experience has contributed towards my unique path of development and growth — as both an artist and an individual —  and I am extremely appreciative and grateful for having had the opportunity to learn, grow, and to have had all these wonderful experiences.

My show has garnered virtually every review rating possible. This just goes to show that reviews are so entirely subjective. What one person loves, another may hate; or vice versa. A review is merely the opinion of one individual. I have learned to not put so much faith in a review… to trust myself, and to not let others determine my value or worth.

Every artist and individual is so much more complex than what can be conveyed in a mere review (“good” or “bad”)… it simply cannot begin to scratch the surface of one’s complex and unique inner being.  … That is what makes life so beautiful and amazing!

And so, in closing… Here’s to Life, to Art, and to Love…  they’re really all the same thing anyway.  Aren’t they?

Now, on to more exciting adventures of creativity and inspiration!

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