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More Awesome NOW: Overcoming Procrastination [June 2019 Challenge]

Overcoming Procrastination: More Awesome NOW… [Photo by Juli Moreira]

I mentioned in my last blog post that I’d loooove to post here in my blog at least once a month. It’s been about 1.5 months since that last post, so all considering that’s not too bad. But still, it’s obvious that I tend to procrastinate when it comes to writing and this blog.

Well, it just so happens that right now I’m participating in a 30-day procrastination challenge! It’s a group challenge for the member’s of our Conscious Growth Club (CGC). Participation isn’t mandatory, and those who choose to participate can define their commitment to this challenge in any way they wish.

My approach to participating in this challenge is as follows: I made a list of all the things I’ve been putting off for quite some time, or simply tend to put off in general. The items on the list are all over the place. It ranges from some basic chores that I’d like to attend to; sorting, organizing, and decluttering of all kinds; mending clothes or sewing on buttons that have fallen off; getting an eye exam, and then getting new glasses; reading (I love reading, but just tend to put it off); and of course, writing in this blog! And the list goes on. My list is pretty long. The challenge I’ve given myself is to work on something from my list each day in June. And hey, every day I’m making progress! And that’s great to see. 🙂

As of today, a couple other CGC members also kicked off a blogging challenge where the goal is to write and post a blog entry once a week. Heck, I’m thinking of combining both challenges – so if I participate in the blog challenge and write/publish a post on one day, I figure I can also count that towards the overcoming procrastination challenge too since blogging is also on my to-do list for that challenge.

One thing I love about participating in challenges is the accountability factor. This is probably a reason why I did so well in school, too – being graded on assignments, projects, and tests is a form of accountability. Having that external structure really tends to kick my ass in gear. I suppose I felt a desire to prove myself and my potential. Plus, I tend to have a little bit of a competitive streak in me, and that inspires me to keep up and excel in a challenge – and to hopefully come out on top.

When I was in middle school and high school, I won sooo many awards for highest achievement in various subjects. I was such an academic nerd and over-achiever in that area. But, without external structure, pressure, and system of accountability, I tend not to be nearly as motivated to really push myself.

The ultimate goal, I think, is to shift one’s perspective so as to be more naturally inclined or motivated to take action without that external structure and outside pressure, let alone praise and accolades. (I love praise and accolades, but I think there’s possibly a danger in that being a sole factor of motivation because then it can become the sole source of one’s sense of self-worth and self-esteem.) I believe participating in these monthly challenges will really help me (and others) to flex discipline and action muscles, as well as develop, strengthen, and maintain internal motivation and ambition. And that in turn can help to rebuild a sense of self-esteem. How awesome is that?

Last month, for May 2019, our monthly challenge in CGC was centered around fitness and exercise. I followed that one through 100%, too. In fact, I’ve participated in numerous health and fitness challenges over the past decade and a half (or so), and have been very successful in sticking to it.

One area that presents a true challenge for me, however, is that of creativity and expressing my unique truth and vision out into the world. That seems much more daunting to me. And I suppose it should– the perceived risk in putting myself out there seems oh so much higher. (But then I wonder… is it really? I guess it’s all a matter of perception.) Either way, I’m really excited about where I’ll find myself by the end of this year and beyond.

Right now I’m caught up in a semi-creative project (it involves a lot of writing, but it’s “work” and not a personal project), and I don’t think I’ll get that finished until at least September. So in the meantime, I feel like it’s unrealistic to put another creative writing project on my plate on top of what I’ve already got going work-wise. But once that mega work project is over and done with, I’m really looking forward to sinking my teeth into some deep creative work. And this time, I really think I’ll succeed.

I actually feel pretty confident in my ability to put in the effort on a deep creative project and to stick with it through til the end. I haven’t felt that sense of self-assurance in myself in a while. …It’s an exciting feeling to have!

What about you? What motivates you to kick your own ass in life? What are your hopes and dreams? What do you want to achieve? And how successful have you been in holding yourself accountable? Are you ready to create more awesome NOW?

And with that, my dear friend, I’ll you with some words for thought:

The comfort zone is a psychological state in which one feels familiar, safe, at ease, and secure.

If you always do what is easy and choose the path of least resistance, you never step outside your comfort zone. Great things don’t come from comfort zones.

― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

Big News & Life Updates

Hey hey hey!!!

So… it’s been a while since I last made an update. (Oops.)
A lot has happened in the past 7 months!

First off, the big, main thing that happened is… Steve and I got married!!!! 😀
We married in early April. <3

It was a pretty last minute decision. I was nearing the end up my allowed visit to the US and would have had to leave no later than April 9th. I hadn’t intended on using up my 6-month allotment all in one continual visit, but neither of us wanted me to go away again. In the past, we had talked on and off about the idea of someday marrying, but usually Steve would waffle on the idea and ultimately decide that, no, he didn’t want to marry; and so we would by default continue our long distance relationship with me going back and forth, or with us meeting up in either Canada or other countries. And this would go on for years…!

I thought this same pattern was to be repeated yet again… but then Steve had a shift in his attitude towards the idea of remarrying. He definitely didn’t want me going away again and wanted me to stay. And the feeling was mutual! But the only way it would be possible for me to stay long term would be if we were to get married. Since there was no doubt that he wanted to continue to be together (for potentially the rest our lives), we decided to get hitched!

We had a very simple ceremony. It was just us two, the officiant, and a friend to act as our witness. We both dressed nicely, picked out some simple but nice (and matching) wedding bands, and exchanged rings and vows. Admittedly, I got teary saying my vows. (What can I say, I can be quite the sap at times. 😉 ) It was a happy day. Afterwards, we went out for a simple meal at a nearby vegan restaurant.

Here’s a picture of us on our wedding day. 🙂

We got married!

So… what have I / we been up to for the last 5 months? I feel like I’ve been really busy, even though I don’t have a “job”! At least not officially, although I have been helping Steve out a fair bit with his website and business!

It took a long time, but with the help of a designer we were able to create a new logo for our online Conscious Growth Club! I also help moderate our CGC forums and assist with our coaching calls.

Steve and I have taken some small trips as well. We’ve been to Disneyland a couple times (we have annual passes, so we kinda go there a fair bit since it’s only about a four hour drive from Vegas); we’ve been to Park City and Durango (Steve attended mastermind meetings there, and I came along for socialization and fun that takes place outside the meetings); and I helped out with a LOT of ebook editing and assisting with daily videos for the Deep Abundance Integration program that Steve created just last month. (DAI is going to create a lot of work for me over the next several months as I create all of the content from the videos and put it into ebook form.)

I also did a fun challenge/deep dive of my own, where I recorded and published a video to YouTube every day in the month of June. (If you’re interested, you can check that out here.)

Aaaaand… the newest piece of news is that Steve and I had my immigration interview just earlier this week! Steve and I, not to mention the immigration interviewer as well, were rather surprised that we landed our interview so “soon” after submitting our immigration papers after getting married. I believe 5-ish months used to be considered normal timeframe, but for the current US governmental administration, what used to be standard wait times are now often tripled (and sometimes even more than that)! We were expecting to get our interview within 11-17 months or longer, according to the current listed processing times. (Some centers even have processing times close to 2 years!) So to have our interview now over and done with is quite serendipitous!

I was a bit nervous for the interview, even though logically I know I had no reason to be. The immigration officer who conducted the interview was very friendly, and we didn’t encounter any difficulties. He congratulated us and said I should expect to receive my green card sometime in the next 30 days. So YAY!!!

Steve and I have been longing to do some international travel, but haven’t been able to due to my lack of a travel permit or green card. I haven’t even been able to visit Canada! But once I get my green card, we’ll be able to travel together outside of the US once again. I’m really looking forward to that. I miss Europe, and I’d love to visit new places too, like Australia, Asia, South America, etc.

So… that’s my update!

I’ve procrastinated big time on writing a screenplay. I definitely still want to do that, and I’d still like to try doing that screenplay writing challenge I mentioned in a previous blog post, too! With the ebook editing (i.e. video to ebook conversion) project on my plate, plus planned travel in November (and then the subsequent holidays), I’m not sure when I’ll get a chance to squeeze in that screenplay. BUT, I do know that I’d like to get on sometime soon. Although, time is relative, I suppose.

Oh, time…

“If you love life, don’t waste time, for time is what life is made up of.”
– Bruce Lee –

(^^ A note to self.)

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